Saturday, March 31, 2007

a sad day for me today
since i had been moved to a C craft and almost entirely impossible to go back to K craft
i had been offered a chance to row in a K for today's NJCC race
but i made a fatal mistake that shld nvr have happened~~
i capsized during the race

along wif me huiming who was sitting behind went down too
i jus wanna say sorry
i am jus so so so depressed now

entering njc canoeing club was wat i wanted since sec sch
and i have always wanted to row fast in a double-sided paddling K craft
and now it can no longer happen...
i am stuck in C now
jus when i start to understand the meaning of rowing K
jus when i realise the mistakes that i've been making while rowing K
jus when i want to correct those mistakes and perfect my strokes~~~~~

i dread the C... i jus wish i can still go back to K someday
to fly along the waters of macritchie
and to contribute to the team's next overall championship title
jus a little glimmer of hope shattered today when i capsized the boat

and now~~~ there is absolutely no chance of me being brought back to the K squad

i always knew i was a jack of all trades but a master of none
but for once in my life i was determined to master something.. and thats the way to row K
isit fate playing a trick on me?
or am i jus lousy?
depression......................

but still, there will ALWAYS be this little part of me that still clings on to the hope of going back to K~~~~~~

Moved time on
2:33 AM

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